Ketchup
You take a long hard stare
At what you used to have
Once upon a time
And look a way when I catch you looking.
Yes I’ve changed
My hair is longer
My bum is regretfully smaller
And as for the butterflies in my stomach,
I vomited them up
And placed them in Pandora’s box
Which you tried to open when you caught my attention
Lost my affection
Stared deeply into my eyes
But failed to see yourself in them
When you placed my your hand on mine
But they were not dripping wet.
Yes I’ve changed
I’m not your little girl anymore
Your movements no longer move me
Your presence no longer woos me
Your words no longer fool me
Truly
I’m anaesthetised
Desensitised
And the bruises you left on my heart
Have healed
And they haven’t even left scars like I thought they would
I just thought I should
Let you know
That I’ve changed
And it’s a damn shame that you haven’t
So you take a long hard stare
At what you could have had
Once upon a time
And look away when I catch you looking
When I catch you dreaming about where you would be
If you were still with me
And face front.
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Rappers when you use the word “nigger” remember that’s one of the last words Stephen Lawrence heard, so don’t tell me it’s a reclaimed word.